How I Stopped Doubting My Salvation

When I was a teen I struggled with doubts over my salvation. Actually, struggled would be an understatement. For over a year I was plagued by this question, wrestled with it daily, and could find no peace.

I had prayed and asked Christ to save me in sixth grade, but in high school I was still tortured by doubts. I wasn’t sure If I had meant it, wasn’t sure if I had enough faith, wasn’t sure if I could be sure.How to stop doubting your salvation

Pastors would ask if I “knew that I knew that I knew I was saved” and I would just think, no, I don’t. I must’ve prayed just-in-case prayers (where you ask God to save you again just in case you hadn’t really meant it the last time) about a hundred times – and I sincerely meant them each time. But they didn’t help.

The questions kept raging. What if I didn’t have enough faith?  If I have doubts doesn’t that mean I don’t have enough faith? Will I ever be sure?

I asked counsel and listened to sermons and lessons, but it just wasn’t helping. Our Bible lessons on how to know you’re saved left me with more questions than I started with. The talk with my mom encouraged me for one day but left me questioning again the next.

I was really struggling, and I eventually started to sense that these doubts were an attack by Satan, meant to cripple my faith. And his attack was working because, although I was beginning to believe these doubts were unfounded, I still couldn’t banish them.

Until I turned to the Bible.

I started writing down verses that discussed salvation – verses such as Romans 10:13 “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved” and Acts 16:31 “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and thou shalt be saved.” I created an ever-growing list of verses such as these and started to claim God’s promises.

Whenever doubts would assail me, I would get out my list and start reading. I would read Romans 10:13 and remind myself that I had called up the name of the Lord so I was saved.  I would read Acts 16:31 and remind myself that God does not lie, so if I believe on Jesus I am saved. As I read and claimed these verses, I would find peace.

The doubts did not go away overnight, but they started to become fewer and farther between. Soon I was going days without doubts then weeks and finally months. I can’t pinpoint a specific time when I stopped doubting, but I praise the Lord that I haven’t doubted His saving work in my life for years.

When I was struggling with my doubts I felt so alone, but since then I have realized that many Christian teens experience similar challenges. We need to help them work through their doubts and find peace in God’s promises. So if you’re counseling someone struggling with doubts over their salvation (or if you need help in this area yourself), here’s the key:

Ask this question: “Have you believed on Christ and asked Him to save you?” Don’t make it more complicated than it is. The question is simple.

  • If the answer is no or I’m not sure, then don’t mess around. You need to settle the question today. Romans 10:9 makes it simple: “If thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised Him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. Don’t overcomplicate salvation. You don’t need incredible faith or to know the answers to every doctrinal question. You just need to acknowledge that you are a sinner and deserve death but that Christ died to take your penalty and that He rose again and offers salvation as a gift. Confess that Jesus is Lord and that you need His salvation, and He will save you.
  • If the answer is yes, then claim God’s promises. God has promised that if you believe on His Son, He will save you. Ephesians 2:8-9 states, “For by grace ye are saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: not of works, lest any man should boast.” Your salvation is not determined by your good works or even by the amount of your faith. These verses say that even your faith is not of yourself. God is the one who saves you, so if you have trusted in Him and doubt your salvation, you are actually doubting whether or not God keeps His promises. We know God is faithful, so claim His promises. Create a list of Scripture like I did and cling to them every time you are uncertain

Claiming God’s Promises

Here are some of the verses that helped me. Add to these as you come across other Scriptures that reaffirm God’s promise of salvation.

  • John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
  • John 20:31 But these are written, that ye might believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God; and that believing ye might have life through his name.
  • Acts 16:31 And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.
  • Romans 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
  • Romans 10:13  For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
  • Ephesians 2:8-9: For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:  Not of works, lest any man should boast.
  • Titus 1:2 In hope of eternal life, which God, that cannot lie, promised before the world began.
  • Titus 3:5 Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost;
  • I John 4:15 Whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God dwelleth in him, and he in God.
  • I John 5:13 These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life, and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God.

If you struggled with doubts over your salvation, share your testimony in the comments. Those who are still struggling can use all the encouragement we can offer.

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Linda Kardamis

I believe that when God calls us to teach, He promises the strength & wisdom to do it well. All we need to do is keep learning, growing, and depending on Him. I'm here to provide practical advice and Biblical encouragement so you'll have the confidence and perspective to not only inspire your students but reach their hearts as well.

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Anonymous - June 20, 2013

I also struggled with this for many years. I think kids who are raised in Christian homes fight this. We never have the dynamic testimony were we turn from a life of horrible sin. It is Satan’s way keeping us from the joy of our salvation.

    Brooke T. - December 2, 2014

    That is so true! I was raised in church all of my life, and both of my parents taught Sunday school and my dad was a preacher. It’s very difficult when you hear people speak about the Lord delivering them from drugs, addictions, etc. and you’re like, “Well I got saved in Bible School.” Glad someone else understands!

      Sheri - February 2, 2015

      Thank you for telling us about this! This has been me, too! I was raised going to church every time the door was open. I went to a Baptist church and was very sheltered. I memorized scriptures and “knew” the Word. I struggled, like you did, after I asked the Lord into my heart. I prayed the “just in case” prayer many, many times! It wasn’t until I realized that I was saved….but that I didn’t have a “real” relationship with Jesus that things finally began to make sense to me. Blessings!!

        faith - April 15, 2015

        I’m only 15 years old and have been struggling for 2 or three years with my faith. I’ve been raised in a baptist Christian home and I went to awana and memorized all the verses and know all the info. But I still struggle with the doubt and keep praying the just in case prayer. Its so encouraging to see that I am not the only one.

        Meghan - December 7, 2016

        Thank you so much for sharing this. I’ve been having doubts in the back of my mind for months on end, and tonight I finally decided to deal with it up front. I tossed and turned as I prayed and asked God to show me what going on, and if I was lost. I did this for nearly an hour, and then I decided to read my bible and after I read for a chapter in Luke, I prayed some more, begging God to show me if I was saved. Then I decided to search “I’m confused about my salvation” and I stumbled upon this blog post, and my. What an eye opener. I have realized that it’s been so long since I’ve had an actual relationship with Christ, that I began to doubt. I too was born and raised in the baptist church, and I still am baptist. And my dad is a preacher, so of course I have that clean slate testimony. But I do remember when Christ saved me. And I’m blessed to know that I’m saved, and that I just need to fix my relationship with God. ?

          Ivz - April 16, 2017

          We have the duty of guarding our hearts and minds in Jesus, by fixing our eyes on Him and growing in the knowledge of His Word each day. Being in the flesh, we are weak and the devil is constantly after us. So, pursue the Word, trust God, for He is good, loving and faithful – He never lets His sheep go astray. We always have that confidence in Him. So let’s not be slack in exercising that confidence!

          May the Lord bless y’all 🙂

        Mike - May 7, 2017

        How did you start your relationship with Jesus ? Because this is me I think I am saved I’m pretty sure after what I just read especially but I’ve had many problems to many to mention but I don’t think I have a real relationship with Jesus either how did you get started ?

    Anonymous - June 26, 2017

    I agree.

Josh - March 4, 2014

Excellent post! Excellent! God’s word provides the objective evidence of our salvation. People who look for a “feeling” that they are saved are building a shaky foundation on sand. God’s word is the bedrock of truth. Build on that, and you will find peace!

Kaylin - November 3, 2014

I’m 19. I got saved when I was six. I was raised in a Christian home, so Jesus was a daily topic. I was young, so I wasn’t out partying, drugs, etc. I didn’t feel a big “burden” lifted when Jesus saved me. But I know it was real. The devil will use that to fool you and make you miserable! I have held to my testimony for comfort that what I have is real…no matter how Satan tries to attack!

Within a week after I got saved, I had a dream. I was at my school, and a wicked snake was coming towards me. I called “Jesus!” and then I saw the Lord come down and cut off the snake’s head. People now may call it corny or stupid, but praise Jesus for that dream!! It is assurance for me!

When I was 11, I witnessed to my cousin who was 7. He had a horrible home life, and I knew he wasn’t saved. We got to talking about salvation, and he told me he wanted to be saved. He prayed a prayer and invited Jesus into his heart in my grandfather’s barn. He went home and got baptized (his grandmother took him), and he’s 15 now. I must say I’m so proud of him for still being a strong Christian!

At churches I went to, I started a Wednesday night class for kids. Two kids got saved as a result. That may not sound like much, but all that happened before I turned 16. So don’t tell me you’re too young to serve the Lord! When I was 16, I rededicated my life to the Lord, because I felt I had grown so much as a Christian, I needed to “nail things down”.

You would think with a dream like that and the witnessing I had done, I should never doubt my salvation! But unfortunately, I did. From the time I turned 17, I had major problems with it. But it’s all my own fault. I wasn’t reading my Bible anymore, fallen out of church, and letting sin in my life that shouldn’t have been there. My joyous attitude in life and, unfortunately, my assurance in my salvation, had all went away.

But now I’ve repented, and I knew I had quenched the Spirit. So it took a while for me to feel what I’d felt again. Now I’m reading my Bible, praying like I should, and focusing on God. I even keep a journal now of my walk with God…which is helping me tremendously!

One thing I would like to add to this post: you can testify. Like now, I’m writing my testimony in this comment, and I’m testifying! Sometimes we just need to be reminded of how God has used us and what he has done in our life! Ten minutes ago, I was miserable, but now I feel renewed!

I’ve had the devil on my back for so long, but now, I feel like I could fly to Heaven and hug Jesus!! This is what I needed! Thanks for the post!

    Linda Kardamis - November 4, 2014

    Thanks for sharing!

    Renee - November 30, 2014

    Kaylin, thank you for your testimony. I have a five year old who wants to be baptized and I have doubts about here realizing what it truly means and encompasses, due to her attitude towards others and her meanness that comes out so strongly. I be
    I’ve it has to be in your heart to have the want to be baptized, not something for show or attention. Reading that you were baptized at six helped me remember that even at a young age a child can have that want/need to be baptized within them. I’m the only Christian in my family and am doing my best to teach my children about God and Jesus, very hard and very lonely when your husband doesn’t share the same beliefs in this area of the marriage. You helped remind me that even the young can do great things for the kingdom of God.

    Anonymous - February 12, 2016

    thank for shareing

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Anonymous - January 25, 2015

Back when I was ten I thought I got saved on July 15th and that was my papas birthday, but I had doubts every now and then and the. This summer it hit me, I had dreams, would cry in my prayers thinking I was lost and I talked to our pastor we prayed he brought me to salvation. It didn’t feel the same though, I’m still struggling and even after being (re)saved and (re)baptized I still doubt and have trouble controlling my mouth and other temtations and I’m really confused and I’m trying to walk closer to god. I’m 15 now and sometimes I get the feeling of emptiness and I know only scripture and God can fill that but I find myself slacking and not reading, and only praying at night and I feel terrible spiritually…

    PXY FAN - March 13, 2017

    Don’t give up. This is two years later, but if you are still struggling, don’t give up. Ask God for help faithfully and he will provide it for you.

Anonymous - January 25, 2015

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Kristin - April 30, 2015

I am 34 years old…was saved when I was 17, fell into a life of drugs shortly after. I was raised in an Independent Fundamental Baptist Church where the gospel was preached and I absolutely believe everything the bible says….and yet I am doubting my salvation. This blog has encouraged me and I am thankful for it. A preachers wife said to me recently, “I think we sometimes make salvation too hard.” She said ask yourself three things. 1. Were you convicted, 2. Did you repent? 3. And did you call? ( meaning did you call on the Lord to save you)
If the answers are yes…then stand on Gods word and claim it!!!

    Cassidy - January 4, 2016

    Thank you Kristin for this! I have doubted so much since I first saw myself a sinner and called on the Lord at 14. I am now 23 and after years of struggling with doubts and praying the “just in case” prayers I am weary from it all. Those 3 points really got across to me just now! Thank you so much for allowing the Lord to use you by responding to this blog post 🙂 It was truly a blessing to me!

    Anonymous - September 8, 2016

    Thanks Kristin. I didn’t grow up in a Christian home but I came to Christ at age 19 as a broken single mom of 1. Doubts have come off and on. But, the battle with doubt is so strong sometimes it exhausts me. I appreciate prayers .

Anonymous - June 4, 2015

Hey there, I know how it’s like to feel that way. I’ve been doubting for so long it seems that peace will NEVER come! But I know that God can help me with anything despite my doubts! Please pray that I’ll somehow find peace, thank you and God bless you! ~NAP

Lori - June 12, 2015

I am 37 and I am really struggling with this. So it is no just an age thing. It is hard to believe in a God we do not see or hear. But we do have God’s word. Nowhere in the bible does it say that Jesus will reject someone who truly desires salvation. I have a few more scriptures to add. Isaiah 43:1 Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by name. you are mine. John 6:37 All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. Hebrews 7:25 Therefore he is able to save completely those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them. God does not want us to be afraid. He wants us to know that he loves us enough to save us!

mgbsavedbygrace - June 26, 2015

I also grew up in a Christian home. I went to private school, attended church, prayed with my family. It’s was a lifestyle. Well when I was about 5 I asked Jesus into my heart. Like many I didn’t know what I was doing. The prayer was so obvious to me at the time, like when they asked me if I believed Jesus was the sun of God I was like yeah of course. Well 6th grade year it hit me so hard. The reality of heaven and hell became so weird. Because of that rude awakening I viewed God as a mean harsh God. I didn’t get why he would throw people into hell. It didn’t make sense to me. Until I was talking to my Sunday school teacher about it and she told me “God doesn’t chose what people go to hell, people chose to go to hell”. See if we believe that we don’t need a savior or that Jesus wasn’t the messiah then we choose hell, we choose to take our own punishment. But if you just believe that Jesus was/is the son of God and he took your punishment then you will be saved.

Like many that will read this, I prayed the salvation prayer a crazy number of times. It was unreal. Like at least once a day. I had doubt after doubt after doubt. I looked at my friends who had such strong relationships with Christ and I always got mad bc I wanted that.

Well I’ll be honest, I still doubt my salvation. Even though I prayed and asked God for one person to come up to me and tell me that I’m saved without knowing that I doubt. He actually sent two people to tell me.

See most people think that you have to have no doubts when you come to Christ. This is false bc here’s a secret: Christ loves people who have doubts. Here’s another secret: Christ only saves broken people. So if you don’t have doubts or you dont think you have sin then your prideful and Christ won’t save you. But here’s what helps me.

“Come into the warm presence of God. Look down at your clothes, realize that your cloths are dirty and ratchet. Look into hell and realize that’s what you deserve. But look up and see the one who endured that hell so he could have your dirty cloths. Take off your clothes. Be real with God. Give him your clothes and watch as he wraps a robe of forgiveness around you. Look at the scars on his hands, remember the crown of thorns, think of how his own father abandoned him. Think of his soul going through hell. Think of his could body laying in a tomb. BUT now think of the chains of hell being broken, think of the weight of your sin demolished, think of Jesus raising to life. All for you, so he could raise you to life too.”

That’s just something I made up. Kinda like a poem I guess. But hoped it helped! Please be praying for me bc I still doubt as I will be praying for other people on here! God bless!

    Anonymous - June 29, 2015

    Hebrews11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

    If you will get in your KJV bible, and STAY THERE, God will give you the assurance of your salvation. Seek God with your whole heart and he will give you that assurance. Cling to the word of God.

    Another assurance verse is Titus 1:2 In hope of eternal life, which God that connot lie, promised before the world began;

    Friends, I’ve been through it, you can overcome it!!!

      JoAnn - October 15, 2015

      Praise the Lord. I’m so thankful to hear all the encouraging words here. I thought I was losing my mind. I will be praying for you all, and please pray for me me through my struggle with doubts as well!

      Mike - November 23, 2016

      Your salvation does not depend on what English Translation you use. A person can use a NIV, ESV, NASB, and others and God would not be offended. Faith in Christ and not in a particular English Translation is the basis for Salvation.

    Sharon - July 21, 2016

    I too have and am still going through this. I have been plagued with this since I was a child. I have asked Jesus to save me many many times. I still doubt. I hear others testify and I get scared. I go to church services and get scared. I’m scared of revivals, campmeetings, etc. I analyze everything I think and feel. Which makes me feel more lost scared and hopeless. I hear people say I prayed and prayed till one day, I really “got it” and it confuses me more …like how do I “get it” for sure? People make statements saying they “thought” they were saved, but realized they weren’t and it scares me to death. What if thats me? Or when people say they felt like something was missing. ..this baffles me too. I do get comfort that I have had prayers answered and feel the Lord guides me and knows me. But sometimes that is all overshadowed by doubt. My husband says if your child were drowning and he cried out to you to save him, would you? Of course is my reply! Then God says He loves us like A Father and He will save you if you cry to Him.

      Linda Kardamis - July 21, 2016

      I was right where you are and I’d encourage you to keep going back to Gods promises. If you’ve asked Him to save you, this fear is not from Him but is paralyzingly your growth like it did mine. “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7

        Mike - March 13, 2017

        The one major thing that makes me wonder or worry is how can I be sure I meant it in the right way specifically did I have Godly sorrow which is required or worldly sorrow ? I do reckognise I am a sinner and need God and I know I love Jesus and desire a replationship with him more than anything! But the doubts plague me even when I get reassured by someone or something it comes back again :/

          Linda Kardamis - March 20, 2017

          Don’t overthink what kind of sorrow you had. That’s not at all how God works. If you want to repent & turn to God, then that is the right repentance – and it sounds like Satan is trying to confuse you. Cling to God’s promises. Come back to them every time. The doubts will keep coming back for awhile – that doesn’t mean your salvation isn’t real. Just keep coming back to God. It may take a long time before the doubts leave for good … keep reminding yourself of God’s truths.

Magen - August 12, 2015

I’ve been struggling with doubting my salvation almost since I got saved. Finally, talking with my grandmother, she said the same things many of you did (a lot of people doubt their salvation, just trust in the Lord and have faith, don’t let the Devil get to you, etc.) This article and the comments really helped me since it was people that aren’t there to make me feel better going through the same things I’m going through. I also don’t read my Bible and pray like I should. When you don’t have anyone to talk you feel like you’re the only onewho had ever felt that way. It helps a lot to see my thoughts and feelings echoed in the article and comments above.

Kerri - August 30, 2015

Thank you so much for posting this article. I’m 22 years old- I’ve been raised in church and in a Christian home with Christian parents and I accepted Christ at a young age. For years now, I have doubted whether it was a “true” salvation, praying the “just in case” prayer over and over and hardly ever feeling content in Christ. However, I believe that it isn’t about one decision made in the past or one sinner’s prayer that anyone can pray. It’s about having a relationship with Jesus Christ now-by knowing you are a sinner, believing in your heart and confessing with your mouth (and your actions) that He is Lord and praying to Him just as if you are talking to a friend, and also connecting to Him by reading His Word and following His commandments. I doubted so much that it wore me out out, not just spiritually, but physically, and led me to doubt Jesus’ power and love and even His existence. The Bible says (I can’t remember where) “You will find Him if you seek Him with all of your heart.” I believe that God will reveal Himself to you if you seek him with your heart. This article helped me so much and assured me that I’m not alone with these feelings. It helps to know that we are only human and others have the same struggles we do!

Tiffani - September 3, 2015

I have been dealing w/ this for some time now, I don’t remember asking Jesus into my heart when i was younger, I remember going to the alter and everything just not what i prayed and now being 23 and that was when i was around 9 or 10, I have been doubting my salvation but i know that i have felt God before. I to have prayed and prayed and felt like my prayers were being heard I would always get nervous about the rapture and things like that because of this.
Last night after speaking w/ the preachers wife and very dear friend of mine i am leaving it in Gods hands.
This testamony really helped me.
Thank you for following Gods leadership and sharing it.
Praise Jesus for his goodness.
May God Bless you and your family.
See you in Heaven one day.

Elishia - October 18, 2015

So tonight I wacth TBN on TV and I have given my life to Jesus Christ a lot of time’s but I have been getting ackact by the emmeny by lies making me doubt about my salvation and it has been really hard on me ever since I lost my dad. My dad killed himself last year right before Christmas some time. So I could ues a lot of prayer s for peace and healing for this. I want peace to where if something were to happen to me like if I get into a car accident or something happens to me that I would go up to heaven. I don’t want to be afraid and I don’t want to be sracd no more about this I just want peace about in my life. I no we are not always granite about tommorw so I just would like peace about this for tonight and for Jesus to help me take one day at a time to help me overcome this. Thanks for the prayer s and may God bless you.

ROSE - October 19, 2015

My dad is a pastor and I was saved at a young age.. like someone else said before, I remember praying the prayer, but I don’t remember how I felt. I actually prayed the prayer and was baptized at age five and then again at twelve. I started doubting my salvation off and on at about age 13, but didn’t talk to anyone about it until I was about 20 and married I told my husband I’m not saved I need to get saved so he prayed with me I didn’t feel anything, talked to my mom prayed with her didn’t feel any better. I felt like not only was I not saved, but I could never be saved.. I was in the front of the church crying feeling completely broken (the Wednesday night after that Sunday when I told my husband I wasn’t saved) and this lady came up to pray for me. She said honey I don’t now what you’re going through, but the Lord told me to tell you he is holding you in the palm of his hand. When she said that I felt love wash over me from the top of my head and go all the way down to my feet. I wish I could say that I have never doubted again, but that’s why I found this blog post because I find myself doubting. Did I mean it when I prayed? Does my life bear witness to a life lived for Christ? Was I sorry enough for my sins? Am I not in awe of the cross enough? I’m so tired of doubting I want to live completely for Jesus with no doubt between us.

    Danielle - October 20, 2016

    I am 32 and for the past year I have struggled with this too. I feel like I’m on a time limit to figure this out. I have found myself trying to live by works to save myself because I feel like I can’t ever be saved. I believe in Jesus but at the same time I doubt. So if we doubt at the same time that we want him to save us , then will he?

      Heather Church - October 25, 2016

      Hi Danielle. I am 35 years old, and there was a time in my life that I struggled for YEARS to know if I was saved or not. About 10 years to be exact.I went through almost every thought, feeling, ritual one could do or think trying to figure out how to be saved.

      There was a point that I came to, where I felt like it was too late to ever be saved. That my opportunity to be saved had passed by me. The belief was so strong, that my skin felt like it was burning. I could almost feel the fires of Hell. I wondered if I could smell it too.

      My point in telling you this is not to frighten you. But to reach out and say, I know how you are feeling.

      After I came to this conclusion that I had lost my last chance of being saved, and I was doomed forever, a preacher came through my Bible College and to my amazement, his sermon was how he doubted his salvation. How he at one point thought it was too late for Him as well. And how he found peace.

      After he preached, I went up to him and told him I was struggling with the same exact thing. He took my Bible and showed me what I had been missing with my understanding of Jesus. I had misunderstood the Gospel. I had turned it into one of works, not on purpose, but by misunderstanding. Satan had blinded my eyes from the truth.

      But when he showed me the simplicity of Jesus and what He did and accomplished on the cross for me, it all became so crystal clear.

      Since that time, the Lord has brought people into my life that believes in getting a CRYSTAL CLEAR Gospel out. One ministry is this website:

      PLEASE go and take a look at this website. It is the ministry of a man that severely doubted his salvation when he was a pastor even. He has some great messages and materials to go through that can and will help you.

      I KNOW with all my heart that you can be saved! And Yes Jesus wants to save you even though you doubt. 😀 He is hearing your prayers. I see this comment is just a few days old, even though this blog post is a couple of years old. I was just skimming through the comments, and saw yours and felt led to reach out to you. I do not believe this is a coincidence. God is hearing your prayers.

      I will be praying for you. If you would like to correspond through email I would be happy to talk with you. My email is

John - November 22, 2015

This has helped me a lot. I’ve been having doubts and this is a relief to know I’m not the only one who has struggled with this.

Anonymous - January 3, 2016

I was saved when I was 10 after a very clear presentation of the Gospel. I have grown in Christ greatly because of the type of churches I have been a member of and because I was taught early in my youth about how to walk with God in my Bible reading and prayer. I am in a strong soul winning church where salvation is strongly emphasized. Often I hear preachers say how important it is to “settle things” if you have any doubts. I have always felt that this is a disservice to people like me who have many times struggled with doubts about their salvation experience. I don’t think I could pray another prayer to “settle things” and it be solved for me. (I have tried this before by the way.) I have made it my habit to go to the Bible anytime I have doubts. I have found that God’s Word gives me peace in my heart and assurance concerning God’s promises. The thing that causes me the most difficulty is when I see adult church members who have had the need to get their salvation settled. A big to do is made about them getting saved and baptized, and then we are reminded that if we have any doubts we should not fool around. It is as if doubting is the same as being lost. I just wish someone would be honest and say that it is normal for Christians to have doubts, and that it is a attack from Satan to discourage us or to render us useless for Christ. Satan will do anything to get us to stop serving the Lord, and that includes challenging our faith. I think sometimes preachers will not cover this topic for fear that someone who truly does need salvation will misunderstand and get a false assurance. I have a feeling that this is a bigger problem than anyone is willing to admit.

    Linda Kardamis - January 4, 2016

    I think you are spot on. What we can do is to share our own stories with those around us – we never know who it may help.

Cass - January 4, 2016

It was truly God-led me finding this blog because I have been struggling for years with doubts. Honestly, you’re testimony sounds so close to mine! I can’t even count the number of times I have re-prayed the sinners prayer “just in case” I hadn’t really meant it or hadn’t quite believed it enough. I know that salvation does not hinge on how good I can be but on Jesus and His shed blood for me but still I fear. I long to be close to Him…to leave all doubt and worry behind so I can focus on my relationship and walk with the Lord but I just can’t seem to find true peace. I admit I have felt true peace before. For a couple of months I didn’t doubt at all but it has started up again and it troubles me very much. I’m ashamed of myself for doubting because I know that God never lies and I hate that I doubt when I do truly believe His Word.
Reading all this has helped me so much and it’s good to know that I’m not alone! That others have the same feelings I do! You have been a great blessing to me and I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

    Linda Kardamis - January 4, 2016

    So glad my story could help you. Don’t let yourself be ashamed about your doubts. Realize that they are an attack of the devil and that you just need to pray & fight against them. Stay strong & in time God will give you victory.

Jenny - January 25, 2016

I to have struggled with this issue. I gave my heart to the Lord many years ago. I do not remember the date or year. I do remember it was during a revival and close to Halloween. I was told that if you don’t remember those dates then you aren’t saved. Now I have conflicting stories. I do know that I believe that Jesus is the son of God & that he died on that cross to take away my sins! I am getting a very late start in my Christian walk because it wain’t until recently that I actually started learning and reading the Bible. When I was saved back then I had no one to share my experience with except my friend & pastor. When I was baptized I only had my friend & my children there. My husband would not go to church & didn’t want to hear about God. Any questions I had, I would call my friend & if we couldn’t find the answer she would call her brother who was a pastor. Many years later I divorced my husband. I am now remarried and my husband & I attend church. I am 60 years old so I know that age is not a factor for these feelings. Thanks so much for all of the comments, I have gotten a lot of valuable info from here.

Anonymous - April 5, 2016

I was raised in a Christian home and saved when I was around 7, I think. I don’t remember much about that day. I was baptized soon after, and lived in peace until I was about 12. I did not know if I was saved, and went to the altar every Sunday praying for assurance and peace. I would pray those “just in case” prayers countless times. I was ignorant about the bible, and just begged God over and over for peace and assurance. I talked with pastors and my parents and tons of people in the church, but instead of turning to God I started looking for distractions from my pain. I fell out praying and reading my bible and I started doing and thinking bad things. It wasn’t until I was 16 when it hit me again. I repented of the life I was living and asked God to forgive me. I still could not say that I was saved. That was a couple of months ago and I still can’t. I go through the day in torment. When I ask myself “do I believe that Jesus died for my sins?” I have these horrible thoughts that “what if I’m not believing with your heart just accepting it as fact in my head. What if I’m saying that because it’s what you’ve always known?” But that’s silly, I KNOW that Jesus died for my sins and that he has forgiven me. I KNOW. But I still have those thoughts and I still do not have assurance. I’m struggling, and I find myself disobedient to God. It’s like my life is a mess and my thoughts are so clouded with confusion. It’s like God is sometimes a million miles away.

    Linda Kardamis - April 6, 2016

    I know how you feel. Just keep coming back to Scripture every time you doubt. For me, it was a gradual process of seeing the doubts lessen. It took time but eventually they were just gone. It was almost as if Satan finally said, “forget it. She’s just going to scripture. This isn’t going to work anymore.”

      Anonymous - April 6, 2016

      I wish I knew how to stop the doubts of “do I truly believe in him in my heart or am I just saying that because it’s what I’ve always know. Or am I not truly accepting him in my heart just in my head.” Any thoughts

        Linda Kardamis - April 7, 2016

        What helped me was thinking back to when I was in 6th grade and I remembered asking Him to save me. I knew back then I had none of these questions and was sincere so I held on to that and kept bringing it back to Scripture. If you don’t have a previous experience that you can hold on to, then I would say this: belief is a choice and all this circular reasoning is in your head. If you choose to cry out “Lord I believe, help my unbelief.” Then you believe enough. You are overthinking it and Satan is using that. Believe me I understand how hard it is. For me my circlular reasoning was “I need faith to trust Him. But if I doubt if I have enough faith then so I have enough faith?” This type of thinking is very real in the moment but looking back it is nuts and clearly an attack of Satan. If you desire to give your life to Christ and choose with your will to believe, then He will save. It’s Him not us that does the saving. We need to keep coming back and back to His promises. Hope that helps a bit.

Jarren - April 29, 2016

I’ve grown up thinking I was saved I had prayed a prayer in 8th grade but never believed on Christ. Now it’s very difficult to even process that Jesus died on the cross to take my penalty away. If you could pray for me that I would believe on Christ and what He did for me with my heart

Travis - May 11, 2016

7 years ago, God drew me for the first time, and it was the scariest thing id ever felt. Mostly because i was told God doesnt owe me anything and people only get 1 chance sometimes. So feared that he would never draw me again. I couldnt sleep, eat, think straight or anything as i cried daily for months. I always thought i was saved because i believed. He showed me i was wrong. He drew me to the altar time and time again, and each time i rejected for fear and pride. I wanted to be saved more than anything in the world, but my  flesh was weak. I got lost back in the world for years,  thinking that was it.  Hoping he would come back  to me one day, when im alone, so Satan didnt have a chance to make me stay in my seat. Then i decided to go back to church one day after 4 years i guess, Fathers Day.    because i was having surgery and in my mind i knew God was going  to send  me to Hell, and this would be my death. To die during surgery. He drew me again… this time to floor in front of me, not the altar. I waited, then prayed, crying, begging,  but doubting. Never got it. Went another couple years lost.. knowing it… bothered, but still living any way i chose. Telling myself i had time. So about a year ago, this month, i started watching Brother Charles Lawson on youtube. A wonderful preacher of God.  No doubt. He talked about the end times, and i watched more and more on death and salvation. The fear started returning to my heart, then about april last year i wrote him letters, and their church tellimg them my heart, and mind and how i needed prayers and help. I knew i was lost and i had to do something. Thought God was gone. That was my  last chance. Then on Fathers Day, same church, as i went last time years before on that day, i showed up hours before church was to start, and a man seen me, and called the preacher to come talk to me. He said we can pray and you can get saved right now, i didnt beleive him, doubts again… because i was told years before you cant go to God and decide when  u were ready… he had to call or draw. This to me meant a heart pounding feeling, to one spot,  and a pull like  before. We prayed and cried out begging God to save me. Never happened. Then i got home, and had a phone call from a man at Pastor Lawsons church i had been watching on YouTube. Brother Ronnie. He said he got my letter,  and we talked for a while as i cried. He prayed with me. I was becoming fearful, hurt, afraid to sin for fear he would give up on me… the finally  on Tuesday June 23rd at around 9:30, my girlfriend had left for work, and i read Acts to chapter 10 or so. I closed the Bible. I said “Lord, somebody once told me to talk to  you like a friend, here i am.”  I told Jesus i did everything i could to be saved. Cried every tear possible, done all i could. I told him i didnt want to live one more day lost, didnt want to wake up another day lost, i told him i give up! I cant do this anymore. I beleive with all my heart you forgive me of all my sins, already have, i just do. You have to do this.. i cant. The last things i remember saying was “Lord help me remove this wall of doubt so i could be saved.!”   I knew it was keeping me from reaching him. I wanted to touch him, but a wall was in my way. The next thing i know there was no reason to cry, to fear, to ask… it was like a light came on… and  immediately i knew within myself, God just saved me. I threw myself off of my bed and to the floor on my knees and face. I screamed Jesus I Love You!!! So loud. I felt such releif and joy. Saying heavenly father felt wonderful.  I was trembling all over and couldnt stop crying. I felt his goodness all around me. So i had to tell someone. I called brother ronnie and gave them the news. I will say.. its been 10 months, and my  joy and peace i have lost. I dont feel saved, im afraid in church, i dont know my direction, and i doubt again. I feel in  my heart, he is all i want and  need. I just want to know his will. I am guilty for being fearful, doubtful, and not sure what to do. Havent even been baptized, for fear of God telling me im still lost. Have an unsaved girlfriend i live with… no fornication anymore… i made mistakes. Been  togetehr 6 years. He is dealing  witth her some..  its a blessing.  deep in  my heart i know what happened  to me, i can tell people all day, but i mever truley accepted it for myself. Salvation to my mind was a thing, feeling, not him. For years i belived that. Now i get saved.. and doubt not lobng after. Eveeytime i go to church every sermon he speaks about  salvation or lost, i say “thats  me” Gods drawing me? Im lost? Hiw?   I get angry  and sad. I feel it…  why??  What did i do wrong?? I feel like dying sometimes

    Linda Kardamis - May 12, 2016

    I’m so sorry you’re having so many doubts. I would encourage you to search the Scriptures and claim Gods promises. Salvation is not about a feeling. And honestly it is nothing about us or what we do. It is simply trusting in what Christ already did. You trusted Him for that before, so now you must trust His promises that He will do and has done what He promises. Don’t trust your feelings – trust His promises.

Cathy Cavender - May 14, 2016

Hi…I too have struggled with doubts my entire Christian walk. I’ve had many, many victory moments and times I felt on the Mountain top…I know Jesus loves me…I know in my heart, that I love Him…so why do I doubt my Salvation? I want so much to live my life for HIm 100% yet I know I let Him down daily. Sometimes I think “all I want is for Jesus to tell me, I’m His”…yet I know HIs Word says that for me. I have head knowledge…it’s my heart that ttoubles me. It drives me crazy. My thoughts drive me crazy. I have few friends and only one family member, whom I know , that is close enough to me that I can speak to her about my Christianity…but I think she believes…once saved always saved. I want to love The Lord with all my heart and all my soul and all my strength…but I’m not sure if that is true…I’m not sure how much love is in my heart. When I was a little girl…I had soooooooooooo much love in my heart for The Lord. I spent so much time in devotions when I was a teen. I truly loved The Lord. Now as an adult of 55, I feel more confused and sometimes lost…please pray for me. God bless you…

Anonymous - June 6, 2016

Hello.. I am 14 years old and I have been going to church all my life. When I was 11, during revival I was convicted. I went to the alter to pray with my nana, and I thought I was saved that night. I started doubting my salvation about a month after. One Sunday morning when I was 13, I felt like I was being convicted again. I went to the alter to pray, and felt so much better. I started doubting again a little while after that. I still struggle with doubts. Sometimes I feel like there is no way I’m not saved. At other times I wonder if I truly am or not. I’m scared that I will think I’m saved, but then die and go to Hell because I wasn’t right. I have been praying constantly, asking for the lords help. I just feel like nothing is working. I don’t really feel him knocking on my heart anymore either. I’m scared that if I’m not saved, it might be too late. I’ve prayed so many “just in case prayers” also. I’ve gotten my mom to pray with me too, and I still feel doubts. Everyone makes it sound like a huge burden is lifted, but I just felt the fear go away, and it came back shortly after. I was also baptized a few weeks ago, and I haven’t stopped doubting since. All I know is that I love the lord, and I believe in him with all my heart. Any advice would be appreciated, thank you, and God bless you!

    Linda Kardamis - June 6, 2016

    For me, there was not a huge relief either. I chose to claim Gods promises and every time I doubted I would read through the list of verses and claim them. Over time the doubts came less often…. And eventually they stopped coming back. So find verses that you can claim and trust God that He will do what He said He would.

Rhonda - June 14, 2016

This blog has been a blessing to me. I was 10 when I asked God to save me. I began to doubt my salvation when I was around 13. I have struggled many many years. I am now 51 and I am a Baptist Pastor wife. Sometimes I am confident and other times not. I have prayed many times. When I started doubting when I was a teenager. I went to the altar a lot . I asked God to save me I got baptized 2 more times after my time. I truly fought then as indo now that God saved me the very first time.
I too would hear preachers say things like: you need to know that you know, or if you doubt then you need to get it took care of, ect.
I could write a book on this. I had an elderly preacher tell me one that he didn’t understand why people doubt but his sister was the same way. I guess that was the first time I realized others are going through this.
My doubts usually are brought on by something like: when I hear someone say I thought I was saved when I was younger but I wasnt. I know I am now. That usually get me to saying how did they know. I then start praying.
I taught a Wednesday night class to the ladies at church on this. I was amazed at the positive response I received. I could tell some struggled as I do at times. Just pray for me that God will use me to help other with their walk.
I do not know why some doubt and others do not. I DO know we serve a loving God that would not turn His back on anyone truly seeking Him.

Chelsea - June 23, 2016

I feel like your testimony is mine changing a few minor details.

I got saved at the age of 4 in a Fundamental Baptist Church. I remember walking to the altar, I remember who took me into the gym storage room to pray, I remember praying (not the words I prayed though) and I remember exactly where I sat in that storage room. I was baptized at the age of 5. I remember a lot from this day as well.
I had doubts once or twice as a teenager but was able to settle them quickly. I grew up in the same church and was under the preaching of truth all my life. I was never a “good” Christian as in I didn’t read my Bible daily and pray like I should, I was very shy so I avoided some ministering opportunities but I felt secure with God.
Fast forward to today. I am 26 years old with a 4 and 1 year old and expecting my 3rd child. I started doubting my salvation in March of 2015. It has been a long road and I am still fighting the doubts. Thank you for the scripture references. I have prayed the “just in case” salvation prayers 100’s of times. I deal with the same thoughts you described. I have complicated the simplicity of salvation to such an extreme in my head that I don’t think anyone could get saved. I have met with my Pastor a couple times as well. We have all determined that I am saved and I need to fight Satan through the power of God on this. It’s so much easier to think that if I could just get saved this would all disappear, but then I wouldn’t grow.

I have grown so much through this. I have read my Bible and prayed more than I ever have before. I have discovered so much more about who God is and how He thinks of me. I hate that I’m going through this but at the same time I am thankful for it. God is showing me so much even though I doubt him almost daily. He really is faithful. I would have given up on me by now, but God hasn’t. I still have a long road ahead but I can’t wait til I reach the point of full assurance. All your testimonies have been very encouraging. I feel like I could write a novel about the experiences and doubts I have faced the last year but this is it in short. A really good book that helped me immensely is “Full Assurance by H.A. Ironside.” At one point he writes about how we cannot base our faith on our feelings. Feelings are a fruit of faith. They will not come until we can have faith. And fruit takes awhile to grow, it won’t be immediate feeling of assurance.

Remember that the Word of God is powerful, it is our sword against Satan and he hates the Word of God. He knows it is truth and that is why he will flee from it. The Father of all lies cannot stand to hear pure holy truth.

James - July 3, 2016

I was raised up in a Christian home and my family went to an independent Baptist church that preached the gospel.When I was 5 years old I got baptized but I didn’t really know what The importance of baptism was and that you needed to be saved to get baptized. A couple years later I was 9 and I was starting to wonder if I was going to heaven when I died I heard about salvation and being saved but I never really knew what it meant. I believed in what the bible said and I believed in God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit but I was still so confused. I didn’t understand what getting saved meant until I was 12 or 13 that’s when I prayed to God to forgive me of my sins and I asked him to save me. After that I started doubting and wondering if I was really saved I can’t tell you how many times I did the ” Just in case” prayer it must have been every service because my pastor would always ask if you knew that you knew that you knew you were saved. As time went on I grew more and more doubtful of my salvation there were very few times I didn’t doubt that I was saved. I felt so hopeless and scared because everyone else around me was sure of there salvation and I just felt like I was only person having this problem. Today I’m 15 years old I don’t feel as doubtful as I used too but there is still periods of doubt however After talking with some of my siblings and hearing testimonies of other teens who go through this I feel encouraged and I no longer feel like the only person who goes through this. I also realized that this feeling of doubt also comes from not reading my bible as often,not walking with God on a daily basis like I should, and living in the flesh instead of living According to Gods will. This blog and reading about other people who struggle with this in the comments really reassure’s me that I’m a apart of the family of God and that this is just one of the devils tricks to throw young Christians off the path of righteousness that the lord wants us to walk

Monique Williams - July 7, 2016

Hello.. I’m 18 years old and I accepted Jesus at the age of 10… I was baptized at 8 but only did it because a friend did it… But 2 years later received the Holy Spirit… At the age of 14 I got rebaptized because I wanted to make sure it was done correctly and done in Jesus Name so I could make it to Heaven.. At that time I thought it was something I needed to do and felt good about it afterwards.. Now I am starting to have doubts about if God truly accepted it or not because of my lack of understanding back then.. All I knew was that there was a heaven and a hell.. And I wanted to make sure I did the right thing so I can make it heaven… Do you think this is Satan trying to play mind games on me.? Or do I need to get rebaptized because of my lack of understanding as a young teen.?

Sharon - July 21, 2016

I have like many of you went forward to be saved many times. I have doubted most of my life. I really struggle with this. I get scared to go to revivals, tent meetings,youth meetings because they preach on Salvation. Or if people say I thought I was saved, but I realized I was not. Or they kept thinking something wasn’t right inside. That scares me. The fact that I get scared to go to these services makes me think that a “true” Christian wouldn’t think that. I also worry when people say they prayed and prayed and finally “got it” (salvation ) it really confuses me. Maybe I don’t really have it. I too grew up in church with Christian parents who never doubted. I have sought help from everywhere. And yes sometimes u feel helpless. I pray and tell God I want assurance. I want to want to attend these services without fear. But I’m whipped before I attend. I start doubting before I ever get there.

Abby - July 29, 2016

This post and these comments have been such a big help! I’m 17 years old. I had claimed to be saved when I was 8. I have been raised in a Christian home and my dad is an ordained preacher. When I was 13 years old I sat at church and really felt conviction which I didn’t feel when I first claimed to be saved. So I got up and got my dad and went to the altar to pray. I had heard peoples’ testimonies and it always confused me because the way they talked about it made me think something big would happen when I got saved. But after I prayed that night I got up from the altar and talked to my dad a little bit because I was confused( again, because I was expecting some big thing o happen to me to show me I got saved) . As I went back to our seats I realized I felt so calm and peaceful and my heart didn’t feel like it was gonna beat out of my chest anymore. I asked my dad if that’s how he felt when he got saved and he said yes. I felt so much better. I got baptized again and then a few months later I started doubting. During that time I found out my mom also struggled with doubt sometimes too. And I’ll admit I have slacked as a Christian. A lot. I don’t go out and party hard or anything but I just don’t read or pray or spend enough time with God and sometimes really don’t focus in church. So I have been dealing with doubt for awhile and it comes in waves. I’ll freak out about it for a little bit and then I feel confident in my salvation for awhile. Then I doubt again. I see how other Christians around me have such a close relationship with God and see them filled with the spirit during church and I get jealous because I don’t get that. And I’ve always somewhat known it was because I wasn’t as close to God as I should be. lately at night I’ve been doubting my salvation and it scares me. But reading these posts gives me comfort and I thank god for that. I know that reading posts isn’t the only thing that will get it done though. I need to spend more time with God and spend more time reading his word, and I hope others struggling with this can do the same and that they can stop doubting too. And other thing, when I went to pray at the altar about my salvation again about a year or two ago, a woman at my church said something to the effect of “The devil never made you doubt it before you were saved because he had no reason to, but since you’re saved he has a reason to make you doubt.” Which also helped me. And she’s right. After I claimed to be saved at 8 years old I never doubted it. Satan had what he wanted. I wasn’t saved but I thought I was. So there was no reason to make me doubt it because as long as I was actually lost but believed I was saved there was no issue for him. As long as I ended up in hell, he was happy. But after I got saved at 14 I started to doubt. I was on my way to Heaven and Satan didn’t like that. And the only way to make him feel better about that is to tear us down and make us sad as long as we are on this Earth. I’m not sure I explained correctly or made sense, but I hope this helps someone who is struggling. (:

Mike - August 1, 2016

I’m struggling with this now. Though I’m long past being a teenager, I have been trying to come back to our Lord for about a year now and completely relate to the struggle described.

Katie - August 5, 2016

Thank you so much for sharing this! I gave my life to the Lord when I was 14 and I have had my doubts but recently, they have hit me hard. I kept asking myself, “Why do I not “feel” God?” “Why do I not have that peace all the time?” I think it’s important to always be in the word. If we start to drift away from his word or stop talking to him through prayer, we tend to lose that peace and the world starts to get a hold of us. Once again, thank you so much for sharing this, it was an encouragement!

Johnathan - August 9, 2016

I have been saved for years, but doubt continues to plague me. I continues to pray for chances to make sure that I am saved, but my timid nature holds me back from taking them. Pray for me that the Lord be patient with me and help me through this.

David - August 11, 2016

This was an emotional blog for me to read to say the least. I’m 33 years old and like many of you, grew up in a Christian home . I was never into drugs, drinking , etc. I didn’t have a wicked lifestyle to get saved from. I went to summer camp each year with our church. I was in church every Sunday . I’m now having these wicked fears that I just can’t seem to shake. It’s like a rush of fear inside of me that I can’t Control. I’m terrified to think of what happens when we die . Blackness? How do we know heaven is real when nobody can see it? I thought these fears were because maybe I wasn’t really truly repenting when I got saved . Maybe I didn’t really mean it when I said the prayer . But after reading this, I can see this is Satan using my instability and my lack of spending time in God’s word to attack me. I have a real spiritual battle going on isnide of me and I just want to know how to beat it. If you guys get this message, please pray for me as well. I’d really love the feel the Lord comfort me so that I can rest and know where I’m going when I die.

Hunter Strength - August 18, 2016

I was saved, bought, and sealed August 4, 2011 but I went astray for a period of time. When I ran back to the arms of Jesus He openly accepted me. But later down the road as I was growing in my walk Satan hit me with doubt and it crippled me. Little did I know it was Satan and it was absolutely horrifying. I lived in utter agony for a week and then I prayed and said to myself, “well you believe in Jesus, you asked Him for forgiveness, and we know God’s promises are true!” After I finally got over that I had a desire in my heart start to seed up. August 1, 2016 I announced my call to preach and it blows my mind that the Lord has entrusted me with such an honor. PRAISE BE UNTO GOD

MAndy - August 31, 2016

Thank you all so much for your comments. I also feel like I live in a world of people who either do not believe at all or who do believe, profess that they believe, seem to always be joyful about God and trusting in his promises and encouraging towards others, etc. And I had many people saying things to me like, “you have to be in your Bible and in constant dialogue with the LORD in prayer”. Which I was doing for a certain period of time when these doubts hit me VERY hard, shortly after I being struck with panic attacks out of nowhere. I began experiencing other very strange physical symptoms, as well as so much cognitive impairment it was ruining my life. Every day I was sure I was going to die. I was sure there HAD to be something physically wrong with me and went to Doctor after doctor after Doctor, with no help other than being told I simply needed to be on medication for anxiety and depression. I sought help from my circle of Christian women in a Bible study at my church and confessed that I had a deep fear that I really did not belong to Christ, that my faith wasn’t real, that I might be one of the ones that was “made for destruction” or one that would eventually be part of the ones that were going to be “falling away”. Several of them seemed certain most of my issues were manifestations of spiritual attack and needed to be fought with weapons of spiritual warfare. At first I was hopeful about this, even empowered. So I
began to fight. I was on my knees EVERY DAY. Poring over the Scriptures EVERY DAY. Literally crying out, even screaming, to God to show me that I was saved and take away my unbelief EVERY DAY. I prayed for the armor of GOd and spoke out loud rebuking, refusing, resisting, and renouncing the Devil in Jesus’ name EVERY DAY. I experienced some temporary relief from time to time. My friends kept encouraging me, telling me my “deliverance was coming soon”, and continued to
Intercede for me I’m prayer and provide emotional support. However, as time went on, I plunged deeper and deeper into confusion, continued to be tormented by almost constant anxiety, frequent panic attacks, and spiraled into the worst depressive episode of my life (which I have struggled with most of my life since adolescence). I could barely function and was heartbroken everyday over the effects this was having on my children and husband. EVentually I reached a point where the stress was so severe that I began to
suffer from a symptom called “derealization” where I felt almost completely disconnected from my surroundings, like nothing was real. It was the most terrifying feeling I have ever felt. I continued to wear myself out with desperate prayer. I did not understand it; I just didn’t get why I felt like I had to pray SO HARD, and Study my Bible SO FERVENTLY, while
Other people in my life such as my husband, who is also a believer, did
none of those things and simply was able to believe and trust. I felt completely alone in my struggle and I was utterly EXHAUSTED. I eventually ended up in the hospital.
I have since been taking medication and have been doing much better physically and emotionally, however, these thoughts still plague me and I don’t know where to turn, how to be free of them. But I am truly thankful to know that I am not alone and will continue to “fight the good fight”. If anyone has a similar story and has truly come out on the other side, please respond to my comments. Thank you, and let us all “be confisent in this, that he who began a good work in you, will carry it on, to completion, until the day of Christ Jesus.”

MAndy - August 31, 2016

Thank you all so much for your comments. I also feel like I live in a world of people who either do not believe at all or who do believe, profess that they believe, seem to always be joyful about God and trusting in his promises and encouraging towards others, etc. And I had many people saying things to me like, “you have to be in your Bible and in constant dialogue with the LORD in prayer”. Which I was doing for a certain period of time when these doubts hit me VERY hard, shortly after I being struck with panic attacks out of nowhere. I began experiencing other very strange physical symptoms, as well as so much cognitive impairment it was ruining my life. Every day I was sure I was going to die. I was sure there HAD to be something physically wrong with me and went to Doctor after doctor after Doctor, with no help other than being told I simply needed to be on medication for anxiety and depression. I sought help from my circle of Christian women in a Bible study at my church and confessed that I had a deep fear that I really did not belong to Christ, that my faith wasn’t real, that I might be one of the ones that was “made for destruction” or one that would eventually be part of the ones that were going to be “falling away”. Several of them seemed certain most of my issues were manifestations of spiritual attack and needed to be fought with weapons of spiritual warfare. At first I was hopeful about this, even empowered. So I
began to fight. I was on my knees EVERY DAY. Poring over the Scriptures EVERY DAY. Literally crying out, even screaming, to God to show me that I was saved and take away my unbelief EVERY DAY. I prayed for the armor of GOd and spoke out loud rebuking, refusing, resisting, and renouncing the Devil in Jesus’ name EVERY DAY. I experienced some temporary relief from time to time. My friends kept encouraging me, telling me my “deliverance was coming soon”, and continued to
Intercede for me I’m prayer and provide emotional support. However, as time went on, I plunged deeper and deeper into confusion, continued to be tormented by almost constant anxiety, frequent panic attacks, and spiraled into the worst depressive episode of my life (which I have struggled with most of my life since adolescence). I could barely function and was heartbroken everyday over the effects this was having on my children and husband. EVentually I reached a point where the stress was so severe that I began to
suffer from a symptom called “derealization” where I felt almost completely disconnected from my surroundings, like nothing was real. It was the most terrifying feeling I have ever felt. I continued to wear myself out with desperate prayer. I did not understand it; I just didn’t get why I felt like I had to pray SO HARD, and Study my Bible SO FERVENTLY, while
Other people in my life such as my husband, who is also a believer, did
none of those things and simply was able to believe and trust. I felt completely alone in my struggle and I was utterly EXHAUSTED. I eventually ended up in the hospital.
I have since been taking medication and have been doing much better physically and emotionally, however, these thoughts still plague me and I don’t know where to turn, how to be free of them. But I am truly thankful to know that I am not alone and will continue to “fight the good fight”. If anyone has a similar story and has truly come out on the other side, please respond to my comments. Thank you, and let us all “be confident in this, that he who began a good work in you, will carry it on, to completion, until the day of Christ Jesus.”

Kimberly - September 12, 2016

I have doubted on and off for half my life. One thing that helps me, is when Jesus talks about receiving the Kingdom of heaven like a child. Children are innocent & believe. They probably don’t even know what it means to doubt. In this world of uncertainties, of postmodernism and “no absolute truth” it’s no wonder so many people struggle with doubt. I am so thankful for an UNCHANGING God, Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.

I think the key factor here is lack of faith. God is faithful to do what He promises. Always. You cannot out-sin God. The Lord still fulfilled his promise to Abraham & Sarah, even after Sarah told Abraham to go and sleep with his maid-servant, Hagar. So even though Sarah tried to fulfill God’s promise through a different woman, God still delivered his promise of making Sarah conceive 14 years later. He IS FAITHFUL, even if we haven’t been.

One thing that you can do is to verbally tell Satan to go back to hell in Jesus Name! In 1 John 5, it says “I write you these things, so that ye MAY KNOW THAT YOU ARE SAVED.” Trust the Lords word. Jesus says Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away!! How awesome and how POWERFUL! How GREAT is Our GOD!

Right before Jesus died on the cross, he said “it is finished” this is an accounting term, which means paid in full. Our sin has been paid! Praise the Lord! If you had cancer (sin in this example) and someone said they had the cure, and would pay for it for free, wouldn’t you be extatic? We must trust Jesus. Rely on him, LEAN on the everlasting Arm, trust and obey, even when it doesn’t make sense. Just like the angel of the Lord told Joshua & his troops to March around Jericho for 7 days…didn’t really make sense, but he trusted the Lord. We must remember to Trust in the Lord with ALL of our heart (not just some of it) and to LEAN NOT ON OUR OWN UNDERSTANDING. In ALL of our ways acknowledge HIM and HE shall make our paths straight! Proverbs 3:5-6

Danielle - October 4, 2016

I grew up going to church , was taught about Jesus but never really understood. As I was a teen I knew he was there but never followed him or accepted him, I actually went off and was very rebellious ,involved in drugs and lots of sexual activity. I then moved in with my boyfriend and we had a few kids over the course of 6 years, it was with my 3rd child I came down with post partum psychosis and I remember crying Jesus help me Jesus help me for weeks but I still never heard about being saved then so I don’t think he saved me then, then I got mixed into an apostolic church for a short time but it was during women’s prayer one night that I repented and was crying and apologizing but still never knew about being saved. My life was changing more towards christ and his scripture was convicting so I would change my ways as I was convicted. Wasn’t til 6 years ago I met my husband who always talked about being born again and I couldn’t tell him I wasn’t because I thought I was already a child of God and going to heaven just because I believe but I never prayed a prayer to accept him into my heart. So would you say I was never saved then? I’m so confused. We had watched sermons of Charles stanley and he always prayed a salvation prayer at the end and I would juSt say it with him. Then last year I woke up with horrid anxiety, doubting everything I once knew, to the point where I was even doubting Jesus existence! How awful of me! My husband asked me if I’m sure I’m saved and I just said yeah but then I wasn’t so sure and since then this past year I don’t know if I’ve ever been saved. I’ve prayed the sinners prayer and prayed multiple times a day everyday , I thought if I didn’t figure it out right now I’m doomed for hell. As I write this I feel my anxiety coming on with fear that I don’t know if I’m saved or not because I’ve never had a day that was so apparent to me. But before my anxiety started last year I believed with all my heart that Jesus died for me and my sins and that he is alive. I even was baptized with my husband about 5 years ago proclaiming that I’m living for the lord, but I still at that point never prayed a salvation prayer! I just thought I had to believe in him and follow him and I was good. Is that not being saved? I live each day in worry and fear that I’m not saved ,I don’t have assurance that I am. I want so desperately to be saved and I worry that I’m the one that falls on rocky ground and will fall away or I think I’m saved but then when I die find out that I never made the cut and to hell I go. Please help me somehow. I want to love Jesus without wavering. I wasn’t like this before but I don’t know if I was saved before this anxiety started last year and if I wasn’t how can I be saved if I’m in the the middle of doubting, I’ve cried out so many times lord I believe help my unbelief and I do believe in him, I know I do. I just want to know if I was saved back then when I just simply believed and wanted to follow his commands . I wish I knew. I don’t want to be waverying, I want to be saved and live my life , but do I not understand enough? Is my faith not strong enough? If my faith is barely anything how can I even be saved? I wish I had a day i knew I was saved so that I could fall back on that day. Any insight please would be great.

Anonymous - October 16, 2016

God bless the person who wrote this it helped me understand my salvation. I have been having douts about my salvation and this cleared it up and now I understand. Thanks 🙂

Confused - April 12, 2017

I am someone who has doubted off and on for decades. I don’t know what I knew about Jesus when. I know I asked to be saved. I just don’t know when I knew about resurrection. I was in my 20’s before I knew Son of God meant God. Is it enough to call upon the name of Jesus to be saved or do you have to know all of this at once?

    Linda Kardamis - April 13, 2017

    I can’t give you an emphatic answer on how much you need to understand – but I know believing Jesus is God is important. If you’re concerned that you didn’t understand that back when you called on Him before, you could always call again now. He is there ready to answer you. But don’t be paralyzed by a fear that you must understand every truth before you are saved – the Holy Spirit teaches us so much after our salvation.

Julia - June 4, 2017

This really helped! Thank you so much 😢😢 To God be all the glory!

Norma - June 30, 2017

I’m 42 and was saved at age 18. I remember not “feeling” a change like everyone else that testified that night. I actually went back to the preacher and wanted to make sure that I was saved because I didn’t “feel” saved. He said its not a feeling, it’s faith. I have struggled over the years because in a southern baptist church one of the favorite sermons is the one where if you fell into sin after you said you were saved then you probably wouldn’t saved. We recently have a new pastor and after hearing some of his sermons I started yet again to doubt my salvation. Why? Because I fell away from God. Why? Well after some soul searching and reading, I came to realize that I had been abused by a deacon and another person in the church as a teenager and child. I had difficulty attending church as I had an abusive husband right out of high school who made my life difficult to live as holy as I wanted to. I slowly got out of church and went down a bad road. God brought be back like the prodigal son but due to my backslidden condition I thought well I may not have gotten saved. I read this article and realized that I’m not the only one and that I did call upon the name of the lord and that my salvation is through faith and not a feeling. Feelings are fickle. They will let you down. Faith is a rock we can lean on. Thanks for the article. Exactly what I needed to read.

Frances Melvin - July 8, 2017

Linda, have you ever heard of religious obsessive compulsive disorder? I believe many of your respondents have this disorder. It is a brain abnormality and it is sometimes called the “doubting disease”.
I believe I have religious OCD (I was diagnosed with OCD by a psychiatrist one time.) I have struggled with doubt for many years. I have accepted Jesus numerous times. This is one characteristic of religious OCD. People with ROCD also struggle with evil thoughts and an over sensitive conscience. I have had these characteristics as well.
When it flares up I go into depression. I am on some medication. (Depression is also often physical in origin.) I am in one, now.
When people with ROCD get into such a state, they may have an aversion to the Bible, prayer, and church. (I have read a lot about ROCD, and people’s testimonials about their struggles.) I have experienced this, myself. It is all in the chemical imbalance.
I still claim Jesus as my Savior and Lord, and have accepted His forgiveness via the cross some years ago.
But I still have doubts, and it seems to get worse as I get older. (I am in my 60’s). People with ROCD have an addiction to seeking reassurance. They are (through no fault of their own) often resistive to things that may help other people. Despite this, some do overcome ROCD. I am still seeking. Your commentary on relying on God’s promises is encouraging. Please pray for me.
Your thoughts?.

    Linda Kardamis - July 8, 2017

    I’m not familiar with this but chemistry can affect how we view things.

    I would just say that God can overcome anything. And that we can choose to believe something even if we don’t feel it. I think that’s a big part of the problem – we rely so much on our feelings. Do I “feel” saved? When what we really need to focus on is God’s Word and His promises.

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